Chanel

It has been pretty eventful. I love Christmas time and holiday feelings, I don't see why some people don't like this time of year.

This is what I got for Christmas!
Hoodies (from sister)
Shirts (from sister)
Nice Ipod speakers (from sister)
the movie Office Space (from sister)
Domo Plushy >.< so kawaiiiii (from tess)
Urban Decay Big Fatty Mascara (from tess)
Money and other various items (from didi)
Tokidoki Wallet!! >.<so kawaiiii (from omar!) Two necklaces, one with koi fish, other with elephant (from omar!) And I hear that I have two boxes waiting for me back in spring. It really is a huge relief that I can come here and visit my sister, nephews/niece, friends, boyfriend during the break. Some times I feel as though I'm going to go insane if I stay in my uncles house any longer. I know I won't be there for long..what is two and a half years anyways? It will get easier as it goes by too. I have to try and become more positive while I'm in spring, and keep my mind busy. Those things tie into my new years resolutions; remain positive, stay busy, get good grades. Awww man I know this is really lame and girly but I just have to. My boyfriend is amazing. He makes me feel so happy and safe and a bunch of other great things. I usually don't get to see him too often since we live in two different cities but we make it work. I've got to see him pretty much everyday that I've been here at my sisters and it's been awesome. With him I have something more to look forward while I'm in spring, other than leaving, but that I can be with him one day without worrying about times or distances or anything. :) I know you can't constantly live in the future but you can look forward to it. My perspective has changed from when I was first with him. I know he genuinely cares about me and loves me and will wait with me! *sigh * I'm really happy.

I prefer this type of ink. "Number one archival ink" I'm unsure what archival means, but it claims it's number one in it's class so at least it is the "best" or so it says. You cannot just assume things are number one just because they are classified as so. Usually there is something better out there. For now I choose this pen over the more common papermate, or bic. The ink is less forgiving, yet softer, and more fluid. The color is more true than the others. When ink is busted open splattering and stickin', dryin' yet drippin' all over your mouth cause your teeth sunk in too far into the case due to your nervous habit, you realize that it's hue is actually a purple color, not black. Oily and slick. So concentrated that it appears to be black when written with. But when there is an accident it's true color shows, literally. It's secret is revealed, the cat let outta the bag. The feline is violet. Not my pen though, it seems pretty damn black and I like it that way. Thus far it's proven it's self, but things can change in the blink of an eye.






fuck you anthony green for messing up my plans tonight.
:/ even though I love your music.
Long distance relationships can be tough, but they can work, and the amount of time they work depends on the people. I don't want to build myself up just to fall down, so i shouldn't take things too seriously. BUT I want to take them seriously. blah

Summer is always an interesting time of year. I'm happy to say this this summer was much much much better than last. I had lots of adventures, and a lot of time away from spring Texas. I got to see friends, be out late often, I went to Florida and partied with caitlin :D just a lot of things.

One thing unfortunate thing did happen, but I was able to put it into positive perspective. I believe strongly that love does exist...if you aren't compatible though it just wont work out, no matter how hard you try. The heart can be deceitful above all things, you may try to make your self be in love you can't force it though. I don't feel too bad, because I would have hate to have lead someone on for so long...Besides most things don't last forever, and the two of us both had a mutual like for someone else for some time now. I guess it all works out.


yeah it was quick, but I'm with someone new. I really really hope for the best with this because omar makes me very happy. <3

I could expound so much more on the summer but I will have to some other time

ja ne!

why didn't I download armor for sleeps newest album sooner. o_o
how crazy of me.


So I'm going to compile a list of things that bother me and perhaps expound on them if I feel like it. No one really reads this so I don't mind it's more for myself anyways.



1.Girls who say they hate girls but have like 3492543053 girls that are friends and say they love them. ie "I HATE GIRLS THEY ARE BACKSTABBERS AND BITCHES! EXCEPT FOR ERIKA, LAURA, JENNIFER, BLAHBLAH THOSE MY GURLZZZ" and maybe like two friends that are boys.

2.Habitual liars. Just stop, I can tell when you're making shit up.

3.Bad grammar on z33 !n73rn37$, not counting typ!ng 1!k3 th1$ because sometimes that is fun :)

4.People who delete every single one of their comments on myspace, they have something to hide obviously and I don't want to associate with shady people. If your rebuttal is "I don't like lurkers people need to mind their own damn business" well so fucking what myspace is a public ass website people are going to look at what they want, if you want to be so damn private thats what messages are for.

5.Kids, I don't typically like kids because they are disgusting, bad hygiene, loud ass voices and annoying. But hey I'm not cold hearted I really like some kids cause they can be cute at times. :)

6.Sticking to one genre of music. COME ON BROADEN YOUR HORIZONS PEOPLE! how can you listen to the same shit all day? I just don't understand these types of people. There is so much good music out there!

7.Music with stupid meaning, or meaning at all. I really dislike talentless music. I'm sure a lot of people think that the music I listen to is st00pid and lame, but I'm talking like..."soulja boy" or stupid ass shit excuse for music like that. I really do like rap, but not stupid stuff like that.

8.People who claim to be the epitome of maturity. I can't even get into how much this one bugs me...

9.PEOPLE WHO TRICK ME INTO THINKING I SAID SOMETHING I DIDNT! D:<

10.People who never shut the fuck up, and I mean never.

11.Douche bag girls who call their friends like this "hey you sexy slut" "hey bitch" "hey slutty bitch" I'm unsure if anyone else has recognized this type of strange behaviour, but it usually comes from those who wear abercrombie/hollister everything.

12.Two faced people. blah.

13.People who say they will fix their faults but then never attempt.

14.People who can't even see their flaws, they are apparently flawless and perfect.

15. MALL RATS. holy shit. People who go to the mall like....on a once a week basis unless they work there..fuck them. seriously.

16.People who change in the drop of a hat.

17.I hate being so indecisive.

18.I hate being (usually) constantly anxious. heart racing, feel shaking, nail biting.

19. MY SKIN TONE. i'm fucking multi-colored. oh well.

20. people who can't make fun of themselves, it's healthy for you come on now.

21. those who refuse to try something new

22. Holding grudges forever

23. know it alls.

24. I hate being stubborn.

25. I hate not being able to admit I'm wrong at times.

26. WHERE I LIVE. I hate it. Lets not forget who either, now.

27. Not being able to drive

28. People who brag all the time.

29.making stupid ass typos.

Blah I'm sure there is 443503495224235 things but no need to get T00 negative, I mean these are just the things that came to mind recently, and I suppose it was sort of a rant. The next one with be about things I like.

I don't usually like to make big deals outta conversations
but i liked this one.

[00:02] Gargantuan3024: I think it's pointless trying to make someone change their mind about something they're not willing to change their mind about, so I guess just deal with it and tune it out for now... Your time will come
[00:02] Gargantuan3024: *Our time
[00:05] chanelkawaii: ha, yeah. not too much longer either. I've become pro at tuning it out.
[00:06] Gargantuan3024: Haha. Well remember if you ever plan on deleting. I'll be mad
[00:09] Gargantuan3024: Sleep tight, Chanel. You are a star



I like to look forward to the future.

So I guess it's about time to actually write something in this thing, seeing as there is about twenty minutes before I leave for school I figured that was about enough of time. For the past two months I haven't really been myself, but I'm slowly seeing that I'm getting out of these really bad moods of isolation and pin pointing everyones faults just to make me even more angry.

on another note, there is only about two weeks of school left and I couldn't be more happy or thankful for that. I let myself get way too stressed out before the end of the last six weeks, or before finals, just to find out that I passed and only once was there one class that I barely passed, yet I still let my very good trait of anxiety and panic kick in. I suppose that isn't my fault though. This summer oughta be a good one, I can kind of feel that it will be. I've made a few good friends this year, and I can't wait to get to go do things with them, and I can't wait to visit my sisters and spend time with my friends over yonder too.

Speaking of friends at my sisters, I love the way when I visit Camryn there really isn't any like empty space between us, it's as though I never left in the first place. Her mom is going to finally meet my uncle this summer, which means I will get to spend the night at her house, and she will get to spend the night over here. I have no idea why he has a huge complex about spending the night with people, it bothers me to no end.

well I didn't get to type as much as I would've liked to, but it's about time to leave for school.

I've been really unhappy for the past month.


 I feel as though I'm becoming distant toward others, yet trying fill my life with things that make me feel happy.
I should probably rid my life of these things, but some will become hurt because of it.



In the past month I've been doing things that excite me but may be wrong. I feel bad immediately after.
 Also I've been sleeping my days away trying to ignore most things.




whooooo knowwWWwwws what is wrong with me.

This week has been a mixture of good, and bad events. I was listening to a podcast the other night and my ipod just stopped making sounds, I looked at it, tried to unlock it, but when I  unlocked it the lock icon did not disappear so I reset the whole stupid ipod. The ipod worked for about five more minutes before it started making a face like this. X_X

Yeah, ipods can make emoticons. -_-

It hasn't worked since, and I let my friend vince try and fix it, who knows how that is going. Jennifer knows some people who people who sell ipods for like 30 dollars, and I'm not complaining as long as I get one! heh.
I didn't attend school all day on Wednesday, instead I came home during 3rd period and watched about two and a half episodes of Hey Arnold, and they really were delightful, I then fell asleep for about four hours.

Went to Jens house yesterday...It was really..interesting.


So after being in AP English this year I've decided I'm not going to take anymore AP classes, because first of all I focus so hard on math to get good grades in there because I suck at anything that has to do with math, so when I'm mostly striving for good grades in there, I tend to neglect my other classes, and since in AP English the standards are higher my grade is especially low. I KNOW I can do it, but really I don't plan on going to college where I need very very good grades to get in, I don't even really plan on going to college period. I'm not going to just fail in school though, I'm going to make an effort and get the best grades I can, I just wont take anymore AP classes.

whatelsewhatelsewhatelse


I SHOULD ask to go to my sisters this weekend, but of course I am not because I hate to.
blahdihfgdiggdifjgdf. I wont be able to go the next two weekends, cause guess what, THE HOLY DAYS ARE COMING UP! fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk
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holy days. It sounds so mean but the more and more I think about it I just find it blatantly stupid for me to take part in these people religion.